Searching but not finding

In my effort to find the parties I spent a few very lonely nights on the beach. Its strange how holidays alone can sometimes make you feel terrible. A couple of nights before Christmas I walked alone down a deserted beach. It was just me, the waves, and the occasional couple laughing and flirting at a restaurant playing romantic Ricky Martin music. Feelings of my past year in Shanghai with my girlfriend, my friends, even my past trip with my family pulled at my heart. I don't want to sound like wuss, but on nights like that its really hard being alone. There are always hard days. Damn you Ricky Martin!